you know when you’re crying?
and it’s like,
shit, I mean, crap, I wasn’t going to do this
It’s not a big deal
but it is
I’ll get over it
And you will
but right now it’s just this crushing disappointment
you didn’t expect to have
and the knowledge that you’ve failed again
and maybe it’s just who you are
because all your life
failure is the one constant.
(I was never talking to you
this was always about me, my dear)